This girl turns me upside down. #foratedani
I feel terrible. I feel absolutely horrible. I know I’ve been unfair. I know I’ve changed in the way I act towards you, and I know my bitterness is undeserved by you.
I’ve been selfish. I know I should just be honest and let you know that this isn’t a result of your faults, but a result of my fears and insecurities.
I’m not at all ready to allow myself to become vulnerable to another’s words and actions. I’m not at all ready for my heart to fall victim to anyone’s hands.
I am completely content in this moment revelling in the joy I already know that doesn’t include the joy you bring me.
At the same time, I’m not ready to lose you the same way I lost so many others. I’m afraid of hurting you. I’m afraid of losing you.
I know I’ve been wrong. This is me trying to make things right.